To my beautiful little girl,
Over the last couple of days I have been relishing every possible moment with you, as tomorrow you will become a fully fledged school girl. It’s the end of an era for us, but I know that’s it’s going to be the beginning of something amazing. Not everyone will understand my feelings about this particular milestone and it's probably going to be the biggest one we have had so far. I know you are ready and you've been looking forward to starting your brand new school since the day you left nursery, and if I’m being completely honest I have been wishing this day would never come. But here we are beautiful little lady, your first day of school. I still can't get my head around the fact that you'll be leaving me five days a week and head off into the big wide world of school. I know that this moment has been coming for some time, it still seems so unfair that it's happening already. In a blink of an eye, you’ve gone from the tiny baby that I held in my arms and made the cutest sounds to a little girl that I love to wrap my arms around, sass and all.
It’s pretty amazing how far we’ve come in the past four years. You are the little girl that started me on this whirlwind path of motherhood. I remember the day finding out that you were on your way, it was such a surreal feeling. At first I was overcome with happiness, excitement and relief. After wanting for something for so long I couldn’t quite understand that it was actually happening. I was going to be a mother. These feelings of joy were soon followed by nerves and angst. I wasn’t sure what kind of mother I would be. It’s a huge responsibility to be a mother, and I wanted to be a good one to you. But the second that I held you in my arms, all of those fears went away. Each day that I’ve watched you grow and mature, little by little, those fears diminish.
You have brought some much joy and love into my heart and I didn't think it possible that my heart could be more full. But, I was wrong and as time passes as I watch you continue to grow, so does my heart. The night you were born, in some ways I feel as if I born, being your mother was something that I was just meant to be. You give me a meaning to my life. I'm not sure why, but I am finding myself in your room, watching you, watching you sleep and listening to those little noises you make when you're sleeping. I cannot actually remember the last time I did this, it just feels so perfect.
And so, tomorrow is another milestone. And as I walk away I already know that my heart is breaking as this finally marks the end of the years of just you and me. An end or an era my darling. Ever since you made your entrance into the world, we've been together, we've been together every waking moment from the second you were born. Holding you, guiding you, comforting you, playing with you, and even teaching you a thing or two. So, I guess it's not really surprising that watching you disappear into a room of virtual strangers is enough to fill me with doubt. When you look back to read this I want you to know that you were ready for school.
As I watch you walk away from me for the very first time. You will see me cry and my heart will ache as you walk through those school doors, but it’s not because I am sad. Ok maybe a little. But I’m crying because I am so proud of you. Proud of the beautiful little person you have become, proud of your confidence, proud of your kindness, proud of my daughter. As I let go of you, wipe my tears away just know that I have every faith in you and that I am with you every step of the way. I hope that school is everything that you want and more, and that you show your sparkle and shine bright like all the stars in the sky.
Love you always little lady!
Awh this is such a lovely post, she looks so cute!xx
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This is so beautiful <3 x
ReplyDeleteAww this is such an adorable post!! You should be super proud bless her shes a good egg <3 x x
ReplyDeleteThis is lovely and now I have watery eyes. My little girl isn't starting school til next year but I'm already feeling some of the things you've written about. I will be a wreck when the time comes. #kcacols
ReplyDeleteOh she looks so beautiful. So adorable. What a lovely letter.
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Hope all went well! My oldest is in year 3 now - the time really does fly! #KCACOLS
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