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Today felt like the end of an era...

An end of something special. An end to those mornings together, a time that I will cherish and always wonder why it had to end so quickly. Those lazy mornings where you would hop into my bed and we would have those extra special cuddles you love so much, where I would try and snooze and you would wake me up by pulling my eyelids. Those mornings where we could take our time in getting ready for the day and eat our breakfast on the sofa together, twinning it with our dressing gowns. Times where we could just look forward to a Disney marathon and not worry about going out into the cold. Those times have come to an end my girl, because now we have to rush around trying to getting you out of the door before the bell rings. 

It's the end of an era my sweet girl...

I cannot believe it's finally time. After preparing for so long it's finally time to wave goodbye and watch you run into yet another milestone. One that has been particular hard for me to accept, if I ever really will. Today will be a bittersweet moment, but a moment that will see you become the little girl you so eagerly want to be become. Being a mother is by far the hardest thing in the world for me. I question my ability daily, I question my actions, I apologise a lot, I ask a lot of questions, and I realise that this is hard stuff. Nothing brings me more joy in my life than being a mother, it's not for the faint hearted that's for sure. As I sit here and think about today, I'm an emotional wreck because I realise that my little baby is no more. It's hard to say but I have a little girl. Things will change. I will change and I know that you  will change. I selfishly hope that you’ll need me more, and that you’ll hug me more. Little lady please let me love you a little more before you're not so little anymore. Believe me when I say this little lady you amaze me, and today is going to be another milestone that we will go through together but I have faith in knowing that you will be that sparkle in that room and that you will move mountains. 💕

We walked into that milestone together, but you? As I imagined you went into that room being that sparkle, being that confident little girl I know you are and you shined so bright. Nothing made me prouder of you that when you went into that room full of smiles and giggles and put yourself out there. It only feels like a moment ago that we were blessed with you and now you are heading off into the big wide world or nursery and it's such a bittersweet moment. Sometimes when I talk to other people they just don't understand what I mean when I say it feels like the end of something. I do think that most people think I am a complete sap when it comes to you. I guess I am and you know what I am not afraid to say that. 

You have made me such a better person, you have given me a purpose and made made me realise what is really important in life. I know that being a mum to you my beautiful little girl inspires me to want to be an even better person. Being a parent you are always faced with so many difficult challenges, some challenges that you don't ever think you will overcome, but because of you I now know that I am more confident in my abilities and less likely to give up even when everything in my mind tells me to. Even if this sounds a little corny being your mum has made me feel as if I can do anything and to always  be grateful for the simple things in life. 

Our journey is far from over. I will make sure that I will be there everyday waiting for you outside those nursery gates, I want to know everything about your day and even if I do feel as if you have left me behind. I know that you will include me every step of the way. I know you will sparkle, you will shine and you will move mountains. Just know that I am with you every step of the way....
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